Open Letter to Reiko

Dear Reiko Arashi,

Firstly, fuck you.

Secondly, FUCK YOU.

Now, to business.

I'll repeat what i said in the rants forum

..............................................................."I'm a social retard short and fat, university students mock me out - here is my fat arm it can't reach, otaku manga japanese music it's too high." .... bye cnz, it was fun.


You guys won.
Popular kids FTW.

I'm the weeabo social retard.

YES CREATURE. LIVEJOURNAL FTW GO AHEAD AND SAY IT.

And i dont care, dont bother banning me i'm waiting on the email to get rid of my account - DACC's still going to exist, NZAC afterparty will still go on, but man you guys don't give a rats ass if i leave anyways, so why am i bothering?

Oshare Curry will always take people from CNZ if they're interested but you're welcome to remove everything to do with me cause obviously nobody gives a rats ass here about me. Do i care? Well i did, i respect every one of you i dont care how much you guys hate me...

I just care too much about how stressed i am - and i'm done, i'm done...... ORZ FECKIN ORZ DUDE. WTF, yea no i dont get you guys.

/b/ tards would even give you guys props.

Okay, firstly. LOL. I find it so funny that one of your most coherent and self-aware posts to date is the post in which you formally leave us forever.

..............................................................."I'm a social retard short and fat, university students mock me out - here is my fat arm it can't reach, otaku manga japanese music it's too high." .... bye cnz, it was fun.

At least you know. I had seriously wondered if you had any idea just how pathetic you are.

You guys won.
Popular kids FTW.

I'm the weeabo social retard.

You think we are the popular kids? Now that is amusing. That being said, I suppose the term is relative, and you are pretty far down that food chain.

This wasn't a contest. We didn't win anything. You continually posted wrongheaded and nonsensical text walls, and we consistently told you exactly what we thought. It wasn't you versus us, it was you versus yourself, your own contradictions. You are the weaboo social retard, and you did yourself in.

YES CREATURE. LIVEJOURNAL FTW GO AHEAD AND SAY IT.

http://visualculturenz.setbb.com/

And i dont care, dont bother banning me i'm waiting on the email to get rid of my account - DACC's still going to exist, NZAC afterparty will still go on, but man you guys don't give a rats ass if i leave anyways, so why am i bothering?

A very good question at the end there, I am wondering that myself. You don't care about CNZ - we are just a bunch of elitists, and you hate us all. So, if you are going to fuck off, the least you could do was do it quietly. But I guess you couldn't even do that right.

Oshare Curry will always take people from CNZ if they're interested but you're welcome to remove everything to do with me cause obviously nobody gives a rats ass here about me. Do i care? Well i did, i respect every one of you i dont care how much you guys hate me...

Now THIS is a load of bollocks. You respect every one of us huh? Well, what about Lucy? An elitist twat, is she? NO. You are the elitist, you fuckwit, you and your DACC. You pompous upstart, attempting to shove aside an destroy an existing anime club just so yours can be the only gig in town. No. Lucy is a better person than you by whole ORDERS OF MAGNITUDE, and you have no right to talk shit about her.

This was what earned you my ire, your spot at the top of my shitlist. Before I heard about that, I simply laughed at you, but largely ignored you. Don't you think for one moment you didn't bring all this shit crashing down upon yourself, because you did. There are few ways to piss me off faster than talking shit about people I care about.

I just care too much about how stressed i am - and i'm done, i'm done...... ORZ FECKIN ORZ DUDE. WTF, yea no i dont get you guys.

/b/ tards would even give you guys props.

You don't get us? Well, the feeling is quite mutual, let me assure you. Jesus Christ, do you have any idea how incoherent you are?

And believe you me, this ain't half the beating you would have got on /a/, let alone /b/.

You know what? Good fucking riddance. I sincerely hope you stay gone, because I do not want to have to try to decipher one of your posts EVER. AGAIN.

Yours Sincerely,

Creature124

This Post Was Brought To You By The Letter F

Faugh!

This face, no mere facade of fortitude, expresses a freedom from fate. This feeling, while not faux pas, is fake, for fate's hand is unfettered and well fanged, so should be feared. But fear is so often flighty, for fate is sometimes fabulous, leaving fear forgotten.

Fate is not fair, it just flows, forceful but frivolous. So flow along, fear the frigid follies, but forever enjoying the fact that you are alive.

--

I wish I had had a dictionary when I was writing this :\

Can you imagine?

Can you imagine a time spent-

utterly alone?

Nobody there but you

Nobody to laugh with you

Nobody to tell you it is okay?

How would you pass it?

Would you sit down and weep?

Would you wander, eyes glazed over, aimless?

Would you wrap yourself in your memories?

Would you look forward to what will be

A time not alone, close but out of reach

Would you hold on to that future?

...or would you scribble a sub-standard piece of poetry on some till roll?

Hiatus

Until further notice, I am tossing this blog behind a couch and forgetting about it. I primarily created this as a place to vent, but I simply don't seem to get as angry as I used to, and all my new troubles either aren't a matter of the public domain or simply not worth the time it would take to blog them.

Hence, this blog is on hiatus. At the very least until the next time someone makes me want to murder them.

No Rest For the Wicked {{Brain Dump}}

Oh, there ain't no rest for the wicked
Money don't grow on trees
I got bills to pay
I got a mouth to feed
There ain't nothing in this world for free.

Something for something
Nothing for nothing
Equivalent exchange.

But how much should be sacrificed
on a hope, a chance?
Is it all right to risk everything for such an uncertain future?

And yet, nothing is gained from nothing
Risk is a part of being alive.

Are we human, or are we denser?
More able to face our demons.

Everyone needs a reason to be better than they are, to improve
I have found mine - at least, one that works for now
To improve myself, for the sake of someone else, as well as myself.

It is time to roll the dice.
To flip the chessboard.
To yell "JENGA!"
To press play.

And yet, this is the time for none of those things
This is a time to wait, and see.

And who'll hear the echoes of stories never told?
Let them ring out loud, 'til they unfold.

No chance
yet no choice.

There is no coincidence in this world.
Only hitsuzen.

So, all we can do is live
Live, and fight
Fight, for our right to get as we deserve.

We are all mirrors that reflect eachother's Karma
I see mine when I look in your eyes - Do you see yours?

My life is finally starting to go right
Stepping up, and settling into a less 'meh' rhythmn
Karmic payoff, perhaps
God knows I have earned it, even if I did not set out to.

And yet I can't slow down
I can't hold back
Though you know I wish I could.

'cause there ain't no rest for the wicked
'til we close our eyes for good.

AuckGeddon 09

So. Last weekend was when Auckland Armageddon. If you don't know that already, then who are you and how did you find my little corner of internet? 8D

The entire weekend was a blast. I was cosplaying as the Blue Spy from Team Fortress 2. First off, huge props to Sylvie for making the suit, it is perfect. And even more thanks to Jess for making the mask - it ended up being much better than I had dared to hope. Between your efforts, the costume was brilliant, and I have you both to thank for it.

The amount of recognition my costume received was truly staggering. I mean, I expected some, but I literally couldn't walk around for more than five minutes without hearing "Spy 'round here!" or "That spy's sappin' mah sentry". Constantly getting stopped for photos should have been irritating, but I instead found it quite gratifying, even if the compliments on the costume were ultimatley misplaced. And I'll tell you what, if I wasn't very good at the knife taunt at the start of the weekend, I was certainly an expert by the end.

And naturally, CNZ shined in the cosplay scene, though there were a number of good'uns that were apparently not among our number. I won't bother detailing all of it - that has been done to death, on the forums and elsewhere. However, I do feel that I need to mention Clan Biscuit. Their contest entries were staggering - I was literally at a loss for words, and those of you who know me well know just how rare this is. Best Group and Best Skit, and both very well-earned. Good job you three - I know you all put a helluva lot of work into your costumes, and it is good to see your hard work paying off. The beautiful rose, the blooming wildflower and the "God of Love" (I still snort with laughter every time the though of Alex as the God of Love crosses my mind). Just brilliant.

The convention itself was excellent - the move to a bigger venue was a very good choice - rough estimates put attendance over the 40,000 mark, and it was very full at peak times - there was no chance the Aotea center could have handled it. The selection of stalls was very good, even if the number of anime-related stalls seemed less than last year. I wholeheartedly approve of the inclusion of a proper Artists Alley this year - it has been the only thing consistently missing for a while now.

However, this year I think the highlight of the convention (cosplay aside) was the R18 gaming section. I pity you poor souls who could not get in - the chance to get a sneak-peek and play at Assassin's Creed II, Left4Dead2 and Borderlands was bloody brilliant, and has strengthened my resolve to buy all three games. And on top of that, the 3D gaming tech-demo (Avatar: The Game I think it was) was breathtaking. I hadn't yet seen that in action, so I had no idea the technology had come so far. It is a crime shame that such a setup would cost over 9000 dollars.

The event was slightly marred by unfortunate happenings of various causes and caliber, but that is only natural. None of it detracted from the sheer amount of FUN I had this weekend. It is all a bit of a blur really - I have genuine difficulty placing the various moments I remember on a timeline, and even remember which day they happened on. A bit of a stimulus overload, my brain is fried.

Once again, AuckGeddon was one hell of an event. I can only say this - thank god it is only once a year, else we might just all die of exhaustion.

Genius!

[2:04:03 p.m.] Francis: gota start doin pushups and situps again sigh
[2:05:55 p.m.] Creature124: wuuuuut.
[2:06:29 p.m.] Francis: yea its prob cuz i gained like 2 kgs over the 2week break lmao
[2:06:54 p.m.] Creature124: oooh. I may have - I don't weigh myself, I only look at the size of my paunch. Its been getting smaller!
[2:07:04 p.m.] Francis: thts cuz ur poor and dont eat
lmao

What can I say? Too fucking true. Either I can't afford food, or I am too lazy to prepare it. Either way, missed meals = lost weight. Genius!